When the election results were coming in way back in November, I tried to reassure my quailing, flailing and wailing Millennial roommate that we also felt this way when George W took office, and that it wasn’t that bad and that we survived.

However, after just one week with this orange creature in office it’s clear things are going to be much, much worse than Bush. In fact, Trump is making W and even Mitt Romney look like better options. Hell, I’ll take Megatron or Dr. Evil or Dr. Moreau at this point. Not only are we going to have to put up with his nasty face and attitude for 4 years, but also put up with the remnants of what is left with this experiment in democracy.

And throughout all this I’m wondering where the fuck are the Baby Boomers and “Greatest Generation” – you know, the ones who told me when I was 10 that the Russians were going to bomb us and take over our country? Now through old fashioned propaganda tactics done with new tools, the Soviets are achieving their goals. And where are the Boomers? Oh they’re quiet because they don’t want their investments upset. Leave it to my generation to clean up the mess. AGAIN.

If there’s one good thing about this shithole of an administration, it’s a hard dose of reality for the teens and 20-somethings who grew up in Obama’s “nice” administration. Now everyone is a bit more awake and aware of what happens when other types of people are in power. Trump and Pence are out there and they don’t have all your best interests in mind.

I’m wondering how I’m going to manage my anger and disgust for the next 4 years. Despite having gone to a shrink for anger management, I really have no idea how I’m going to manage it. Perhaps it’s time to go back to the shrink proactively and ask him.

In other news, I went to West Virginia during inaugural weekend and the Women’s March. It was a good get away although my house mates were not the outdoorsy types. They could not be extracted from the house even though it was 60 degrees out. So I hiked by myself and found an old abandoned bus and heard a raven in the valley. At night, I heard the unsure hoots of a great horned owl.

I found our Priscilla: Queen of the Valley vehicle for the weekend up on the ridge. #Priscilla

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My job is going well. I’ve been at it for almost 3 months. I am back to tweeting and blogging for work, but also lots of writing too. It’s good to be back doing what I’ve wanted to do for 4 years.

6 Comments

  1. NIFP says:

    Glad to hear your job is going well. Is it still contract work, or are you a regular employee? And I realize this is NOMB, but since you brought it up, was the anger mgmt shrinking court ordered or something? I really don’t get that vibe from your blog, but I suppose you control all that we see and hear (just like Trump wants to do!).

    I highly (HA!) recommend better living through chemistry. Something from the benzo family, like clonazepam if you foresee the need for long term use, or lorazepam if you just need the occasional leveling out. Or medical marijuana, but go for an edible so your breath won’t be awful. You’re already doing the exercise thing (hiking, rugby, I’m assuming gym, etc.), which also is a big help. Maybe check out some guided meditation CD’s from the library. Or just listen to your favorite soothing music and think peaceful thoughts. And your proactive shrinking idea certainly has merit. Best of luck to you (and us all) both now and for the next 4 years.

  2. Mari Inshaw says:

    Don’t self medicate. Please see your shrink. You’re a full Fed right? You did sign up for insurance, right? Mental health services should be covered. Make an appointment. Break in a new shrink if you have to.
    Stay employed. Stay sane.

  3. jimbo says:

    Yep, I’m a full fed, got insurance. Anger management was not court-ordered, it was my idea and it worked for the most part until our democracy started to unravel. Long ago I tried clonazepam and didn’t like it at all. It gave me brain zaps at night and frequent uncomfortable hot flashes. Although that might have been menopause.

    I think regularly imposed time off Facebook and the news might help a lot. Still working out and stuff.

  4. NIFP says:

    Glad you got in before the hiring freeze, and have insurance! I suppose you should re-read 1984 to brush up on your Newspeak, since you seem to be in charge of social media for your federal job.

    Sorry if I seemed like an ass for asking about the anger mgmt, but I’m glad the decision was yours and not made for you. Perhaps you could do with a tune-up. I think the most popular style of therapy for that is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT, which always makes me giggle, considering what that can mean in certain sexual circles). I always had limited results with that, but find it helpful as part of an overall coping plan. Nowadays, I just check out a book or two from the library’s self-help section, because I can’t stand talking about it anymore.

    It sounds like you already have a good plan and know what works and doesn’t for you. The SSRI’s/SNRI’s are actually first-line now for anxiety (and talk about brain zaps, especially if you end up with any unpleasant (e.g., sexual) side effects and want to go off that class of drug), but I needed the benzo in addition to duloxetine. There are always the old school tricyclic antidepressants (TCA’s). And I didn’t mean to imply that you “self medicate”; do all under the care/direction of a good physician.

    I don’t do social media, and since my partner and I became cord cutters, it’s been easy to avoid the news. I just skim whatever makes it onto my homepage, and do the same at JoeMyGod.

  5. jimbo says:

    I am well versed in both types of CBT.

  6. napoleonva says:

    Where in WV?